Last night before we went to bed, Carly read to me her blog that she has been working on for her senior project. She graduates in just two months which is awesome. Her blog is one for giving advice to people who want to go to BYU-I or who are going to BYU-I. One of her posts was about choosing a major. She said that we need to choose a major of something we actually like doing. We can change it at any time and we don't need to be afraid to do so. Basically, we can be whoever we want to be. She told me that she wrote that post with me in mind. Probably because I've already changed my major once, from Music to English Education. This didn't really hit me, or sink in, until this morning when I woke up.
Carly and her roommate are still asleep and it's 10:16 am. I can't sleep in past 9:30 no matter how late I stayed up the night before *cough* 3 am *cough*
But I woke up feeling like a new person. I feel completely different. Confident and determined. Like I want to move forward in my life and I want to figure out what I want. This is a GREAT feeling. I feel happier too. Wow, didn't know this was what Rexburg could do for me. I need to do something with my life. And this is the perfect time to do it.
When breaking up with my boyfriend, I lost complete interest in boys. And I didn't know why. True, I've only been on one date with a boy since then but still. I didn't know what Heavenly Father wanted for me. I didn't know what I was supposed to do with my life. And so I just kept praying and going to the temple and reading my scriptures, hoping and trusting in Him that I would be lead to my next step. Well, I'm still not there but at least now I have the desire to find the next step. And now I know why I don't care about boys right now. I need to get my crap together.
I'm going to research all of the majors at BYU-I and figure out what I want in life. No matter what it is. After that first semester of coming back from the mission and actually doing a decent job in my classes for the first time ever, I have the confidence that I can do whatever I want to do. And now I actually trust what my patriarchal blessing says about my schooling. I can do whatever I want to do. Anything. And I will succeed. Just got to figure out what that is. Also I've realized that I belong here in Rexburg. From the first moment that I drove in and saw everything and started remember all of the good times, I just felt like I was home. I've missed it here. And I feel more confident and more myself. I don't feel that at all in Provo. So I may be moving back here. We'll see. For now, I'll just figure out what I want to do.
But I know that God has a plan for us. We need to seek his help to know what it is and what we are supposed to do. But He will reveal it to us if we are patient and trust in Him.
And man, am I happy right now :)
